Random Rantings of a Sarcastic Poet » marks

cravingoxygen — Wed, 16 Jul 2008 14:22:49 +0000

So here I am. Sorry I missed yesterday, but it was hectic. Strangely enough, even though I profess to hate going to music and that I want to quit it, I feel so much better after a music lesson than I do after an afternoon at home. Even if I am dog tired. Weird. Oh well.

Today was okay. Afrikaans was really boring. Biology was very boring too. We got our results and went through the tests. We were on the subject of red blood corpuscles and someone mentioned a vampire for some reason. Which made me wonder whether the blood of people with more erythrocytes would taste different to those with less. I asked the teacher and her opinion is that it probably will. Everyone looked at me strangely for quite some time afterwards. *shrug*

Maths was okay. Yesterday, I discovered that the teacher had made a mistake with the mark allocation which means that everyone got more for their exams. She marked the exam as though it was out of 100, when it was actually out of 84. Which reusulted in me being quite popular with the rest of the class (since those who failed previously now passed) and unpopular with her. Today she was dissing us quite badly, asking us a question and when we can’t answer her, then she’d say ‘Your marks are too high. Much too good’ in her cute Russian accent. Even though she was making idiots of us all, we still love her though : P She’s a sweetheart.

/me grins

English was way boring. So boring that my desk started looking very plain and empty, so it got a makeover. I can only draw two things: aliens and candles on fingers. So my english desk was the lucky winner of an alien drawing. The teacher will probably only notice the vandalism in a couple of days’ time. *shrug again*

Just got back from the library. Honestly, there is practically no good fiction in there. After browsing through there for like an hour, I finally discovered a set of three shelves with interesting books on them. Three shelves, for crying out loud! Out of the whole freaking library. *sigh* Oh well. I now have some pretty good books. An Eragon book. A couple of Robin Hobbs books. And some other sci-fi/mystery books.

Leon gets back tomorrow. The poor guy was booked off sick for the past week. Flu or something I think. I still wear the little ring thingy. And I got a silver one from my sister. So now I wear two. *grin* They saved me from a burnt hand the other day. We have a little fireplace/stove in the living room. I was playing around with it’s lid and accidently dropped it on my hand. Thankfully, the rings saved me from getting too burnt. lol. Who says jewelry is only for the vain : P

Kyle, the new dude in our class has been trying to figure me out all week. Unsuccessfully though. I think he’s trying to fit me into a mould or something. I don’t generally do very well with moulds though. lol. It’s absolutely hilarious the way I puzzle him.

I still havent been back on PS. I don’t know when I plan on going back. My mind isn’t any clearer. Maybe by next week. Maybe. It’s all just so confusing. *sigh* I think that one day I should get a job that doesn’t involve any people. People are what make your life complicated. If there weren’t any people then life would be so much easier. Don’t go and analyze that, I know that what I’m saying doesn’t make sense and isn’t practical. But still. Without other people, I wouldn’t have nearly so many problems. But whatever. I’ll just have to deal. The way I always do.

I have seriously been considering letting my marks die a miserable death. Who cares anyway. I’ll make sure I pass and keep my Maths and Science high enough to get somewhere, but, quite honestly, who cares.

My friends and I were standing around during break today and one of them mentioned that she didn’t like quiet people. She thinks that they are evil and are always just listening to everything and learning it or plotting something. Also that ’still waters run deep.’ Maybe she’s right. Nah, I don’t think I’m evil though. The rest might be true though. *evil grin* On a more serious note though, the whole little quote thing is very very true. My life could seem quite perfect. But it is soo not. If only they knew. But whatever.

Your Quiet Sarcastic Poet

cravingoxygen — Mon, 14 Jul 2008 14:40:53 +0000

Hey all.

I’m in a much better mood today. Probably thanks to my friend (the one I debate with all the time) and because of my friends at school. Between them, they managed to get me into a reasonably cheerful state. I’m sitting on my beanbag, in front of my desk and with the keyboard on my lap because I can’t be bothered to move the chair closer. Since it’s at my other desk. Since I should be doing homework now, but I’m too lazy to move it closer. And yes, I do have homework on the first freaking day of school.

It’s amazing how you can miss someone without noticing it. I don’t generally miss people. For me, when I miss someone, it is usually triggered by something I saw or heard or think about. So my brain automatically filters it out or something and I end up not missing people. Only when I see/talk to that person again do I realize that I have missed them. Like the self-defense mechanism realizes it’s not needed anywhere and turns off. And then I’m suddenly quite bright and happy again, because I was missing that person without realizing it. Very interesting.

I feel a lot better today. When I logged on to skype (yes I knew I said I wouldnt, but whatever. I stayed invisible so no-one else would talk to me) to talk to Woy yesterday and he asked me how I felt, I almost started crying. It’s so weird. Whenever I’m upset, I have this mentality of ‘It’s okay. You are getting yourself all worked up about this. You are overreacting. Take a deep breath and get it together, girl. It isn’t really that big of an issue…’ So that’s why I don’t really think that I’m depressed. Maybe I am. But as long as I don’t think so, it’s okay, right? I mean, unless I start wanting to slit my wrists or something. Which I won’t do, don’t worry.

Got a lot of my exam results today. Nothing particularly interesting, except my Science, which I am actually really proud of. For a change, I am thrilled about a mark. Oh joy. And I’m not going to post it here, because there are people reading this. But I am very happy with it. The rest of my marks are good, but whatever to that. The teachers can all go kill a kikiri. As can most of my rp friends. I’m just sick of everything. Well, almost everything. But whatever.

There’s a new guy in our class. Named Kyle. He was looking all lost at line-up today and the rest of the class were ignoring him. They tend to ignore pretty much everything on the first day of school except their friends. I’m pretty sure the school could burn down around them and they wouldn’t stop talking. But whatever. So he was standing there, quite close to my group of friends, seeing as we’re always the last to leave. I took pity on him and asked him which subjects he took. Agnes noticed him and promptly grabbed him and adopted him. /me chuckles. That girl cracks me up. She was complaining that she hurt all over from laughing too much during computers and Life Orientation…. So anyway, we showed the poor guy around and told him to follow one of us who had all the same subjects as he does. He managed to start finding his feet close to the end of the day, during English. Poor dude. I guess that our class can be pretty overwhelming, but whatever. We’re the best in the school… or the funniest anyway. Definitely not the quietest or the most hard-working. But everyone knows our name. That’s the price you pay for notoriety : P

Yeah. So I really have to go do some theory now. I’ll talk to ya’ll again later. I hope.

Your More Cheerful than Yesterday Sarcastic Poet

cravingoxygen — Thu, 24 Apr 2008 18:13:00 +0000

Yeah whatever.
I guess I should say hello, right?
Yeah, well, whatever.I’ve just had a series of perfectly horrible days. First of all, the local substation blew up or something, so we’ve been without power for the past couple of days. Hence me not posting. Now this means cold showers in winter, no hot chocolate, no browsing, no reading ’till late at night, no music, etc, etc, for those of you who don’t know. Yeah, well.

Secondly, I got my report. Which most people think is a good thing, considering my marks. But it’s not. My over-all average is 95%. And yes, I am in the upper three grades of high school. I should be really happy, right? But I’m not. It means that most people have even more reason to label me a freak, especially since Fishy (A guy in class) had to go and show the meanest half of the grade 11 class my report class. *Sigh*. Great.

I guess I should be really happy, but I’m not. And I can’t even blame it on exhaustion or PMS or anything any more. I don’t know why, but my marks just don’t excite me. And don’t get me wrong, I’m really proud of them and enjoy getting them, but for crying out loud!!!! Who gets that for an average?!?!?!?! It just depresses me.

And then, to crown a horrible week, the guy I like is leaving the school. He told me on Tuesday, the day that the power went off so I couldn’t even browse my worries away. At least I was the first person that he told. I’m probably the most miserable of all his friends. I couldn’t even concentrate in Accounting today. And that was some time ago. I feel so miserable. And yes, I am about to have a pity party. I’m allowed to, aren’t I? It’s not like anyone’s reading this, so here goes:
Who else am I supposed to bunk subs with? Who else am I supposed to be late for the next class with because we were doing maths? Who else am I supposed to hit over the head in Science? Who else am I supposed to race to Ma’am’s desk in Accounting. He was the one person who was never jealous of me and always just congratulated me and was nice to me and would ask me what was wrong. He was like the older brother I never had, the one I’m really in love with. I don’t know how I’m going to make it through tomorrow. Tomorrow’s the last time that I see him . Probably ever.

He’s really excited, though. I won’t give you an overview of his home situation; it’s really complex. He’s really glad to be able to get out and do his own thing and not be responsible for ten other people. And I respect him for that. He’s really looking forward to this and so, I’ll congratulate him and pretend that my freaking heart isn’t falling apart inside of me.

I better get offline. I still need to study IT. Which he’s dropping, since it’s a boarding school. Even his girlfriend isn’t as upset about this as I am, in fact, she doesn’t give a dam.

Anyway. More philosophizing tomorrow.

Your Sarcastic Poet with a Fallen-Apart Heart Inside of Her

cravingoxygen — Mon, 14 Apr 2008 20:18:00 +0000

Hi allSorry I skipped yesterday, but it was hectic. And I only have a few minutes tonight – I am dead tired.

So yesterday was the big guild meeting. It was hilarious. My one friend is a drunk and always has beer on him. He was giving beer away and waving it around all the time. He wouldn’t stand still either, lol. The other guy kept asking our ‘great, respected leader’ stupid questions and then telling her to hurry up. And the whole place was decorated with crystals and diamonds. To top it all, I was promoted to the next rank in front of the whole (active) guild.
Afterwards, we all went to the tavern and had a party. Half the people were dancing on the tables and the other half were getting free drinks from my drunk friend.

Yesterday, I also went to church and saw two of my good friends again. For safety’s sake, I’ll call them V and C. C used to be a drug lord and V used to be on drugs like hectic, but now they’re both clean. It was cool to see them again, I missed them.

So, today was the first day of school. School was okay, I guess. We actually worked (stifle the shock please). I got the results for a scientific report I did and I didn’t do as well as I’d hoped. But never mind that. Afrikaans was boring, in English we had to sit outside since the lights kept tripping. In Life Orientation we got our term marks and chatted. I can’t believe that I managed to do well, since I hate that subject, lol. Science we started with the physics part for the year and (thankfully) finished graphs. I hate graphs almost as much as LO. I still have the huge IT project, but apparently, it’s not that huge after all. The guy I like (who takes IT with me) phoned the teacher to ask what we were actually supposed to do.I practiced piano for a good hour or so and then gave up. The teacher will just have to be happy with what I did. I also Role-played for a good few hours. My char finally got herself a boyfriend. The guy is really nice and is a lot better at rping than most people I’ve seen. Which is good, since I love rping.
I also met his boss, who is also really nice. She is really good. And strong. Unlike certain people…

Oh well, my eyes are closing as I write this, so I’m going to finish now. Maybe I’ll have the energy to be sarcastic again tomorrw, lol. Too tired now…

Your Too-Tired-to-be-Sarcastic Poet