cravingoxygen — Fri, 23 May 2008 18:14:00 +0000

Hey again.
Here’s my newest poem if you feel like reading it:

Craving Oxygen
As an alread-parched desert
Is forever desiring more sun
As a drunken ocean
Begs more water for the next high
My heart pleads for space and isolation
My lonely soul craves oxygenAlways feeling crowded
Though there’s no-one around
Never mind that the place is empty
Feel like I still hear sounds

It’s as though the air is liquid
Each breath I take -
It burns me

Breathing shards
Of shattered glass
Feel it slicing up my feelings

Hate this eternal silence
But cracked silence hurts more
It’s cutting up my emotions
Puncturing my heartCall it paranoia
You can never be too careful
Retreating into my loneliness
Where there’s no-one to cause pain
‘Cept me

Maybe I’ll add some more to it. But that’s it for now. Maybe that shrink was right. *sigh sigh*
Don’t really know. Don’t particularly care. I guess this is me in a certain sense, but not how I feel right now. I, personally, am feeling pretty okay.Your Sarcastic Poet

The Shrink – Part 2

cravingoxygen — Mon, 07 Apr 2008 19:09:00 +0000

Hey again all who might for some strange reason be reading this.Well, I went to the shrink. Apparently I isolate myself from the rest of the world. I also have no guilt feelings at all. I guess I don’t have to worry about suffering from a guilty conscience. I also push myself too hard and get frustrated
when I don’t get something right.
And there I was, thinking I needed serious counselling against suicide or
something, when those are my biggest problems.

I totally get the ‘isolate’ part. I like being alone. It has a quality to it that being with someone just doesn’t have. I enjoy being by myself and thinking and just being. I don’t like having people around me all the time. And I find nothing wrond with that. Apparently, though, at the rate that I’m going, I’ll end up being a recluse. Which also has serious possibilities…

I don’t quite get what she means with the whole guilt idea. I’m afraid that I do have a conscience and more than enough guilt feelings, just not about other people’s situations or their problems that they caused. If they got themselves into serious problems, I’ll be sympathetic, but no way I’m gonna feel guilty about it. Cry a river, build a bridge and get over it!

As for pushing myself too hard, if I don’t push myself, I don’t work. And the reason I push myself so hard is because I know I can do it. I’m not about to set unrealistic goals for myself, but honestly. According to her, it’s okay now, but if I keep it up for too long, I’ll burn myself out. Hah! Me, burn myself out? I seriously doubt it. I might irritate the hell out of myself, but I won’t burn myself out. I’m not that stupid.

So there. Sorry, it wasn’t that interesting. Oh well.

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The Shrink – Part 2